Sharing...

I felt very sad and disappointed when I found that I had actually don't have any close friend who can I share my feelings and thoughts with. All are busy for themselves. When there is nothing happen to them, they wouldn't find me. Maybe this is a reality of life. I had being complaint by my friends as a person who are so noisy, keep interrupting them, like to argue with people, make the people around me feel stress and as a burden for them. Maybe I have nothing good in their eyes.

A few days ago, a friend compare me with a person who is so so so so so so so nice. No tempered, good leadership, wouldn't scold people and etc. Me? So bad tempered, keep scold people, bad leadership... Actually, I often behave like that because I care about something. Eg, when I care about assignment, I want other group members to do their part well. When they do wrongly or just simply do their part without effort, I will get angry and scold them. If I totally not care about the assignment, I wouldn't waste my energy to scold people like that. You think scold people is a very happy thing to do??

Since that, I decide to change myself. I won't care so much for other's part when I do the group assignment. When I care less, then I won't so angry when they just simply do their part. Just let them do what they want. Want to be so strict for what?? People won't appreciate my effort to ensure the report is done properly. Just learn more from my good group leader that just care for his part without see and check other member's part. Maybe like that all people will be happier and less complaint about me. I can change myself to be like what they want, but I really hate myself to be a selfish people that just care for my part in doing assignment. Nevermind, just try to suit myself with the group environment, even though I hate to do things in group. Hopefully I won't lost myself in the process to suit others.

Assignment Problem......................

The risk assignment finally submitted today. Before this, yesterday night, the group leader just sent me the finalize draft report and ask me to check and see if have any problem. However, that time I just go back to my room from computer lab and that time is around 10pm. So, I just told him that if he think the report is ok then ok. Previously, I give my idea in the discussion but he say I didn't give. This time, even I have see and check the report, he also will say I didn't see and check. Then, no need to waste time to go back to the lab and download it to check.

Just now, I go to download the report and see. There is still a problem in the report. That problem occur at my part that I did about the conclusion. Previously I had told him that the conclusion need to be changed because of the changes made by other members without my knowledge. Till now, I just realized that he as a group leader didn't check for other members' part. He just care for his part. Maybe human being is really only eat protein.

In this incident, I agree that I have done a mistake for my part. But, I don't agree that he didn't have done the wrong thing. I just think that he as a group leader, he also have the responsibility to make sure the report is done properly. So, I think he also has to bear the responsibility for the mistake of the report. Or maybe in others' perspective, they may think that I am the only one who are wrong the most.

Back to UUM...

After the 5 days MC leave plus the Independent Day, I finally had came back to UUM. My illness had fully recovered. However, what had made me worry is my throat. I keep feeling a bit not comfortable for my throat. Hopefully able to tackle this problem by drinking more water and "liang cha".

I am appreciate those friends who had concern for my health problem during the period I fell sick. I just wondering how they know I fell sick. Some friends that less contact also knew I fell sick. I suddenly became famous during the sick period. Haha...

Just now about 4pm, I had went to Wushu Fair at Foyer Library. I just able to watch their closing ceremony because they will finish the project at 5pm. Quite grateful for their invitation to attend the ceremony. Many new faces that I did not see before in Wushu Club. This shows that I had not attended Wushu Club activities and training for quite a long time. Actually I quite worry about the admin of the club and the development of the club in future but I can't do anything about it. Hope that the current admin of the club had made the right decision for the club's future arrangement.

Later have to fix my extension plug at my room. It had been burnt by the "running electric" incident. The fuse of the plug had fully damage. I had change 3 extension because of that burnt. Maybe tomorrow want to go to office to complaint and report about the crazy soket at my room. However, I think the efficiency and effectiveness of the office operation will be the big question to settle my problem. Maybe after I graduate, the soket still not being fixed by them. Haha...